New Blog

Hello my wonderful family and friends. Being that I am about to embark on a new and exciting chapter to my life, I am going to start a new blog for my new little family (Paul and I). I want everyone who wants to read it and follow us to have access but I am going to make it private. If you want to follow it please send me your email address and I will add you. I'll probaly start it in the next couple weeks or so.

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Don't Click Links

I'm not sure why, but for some reason some of the words in my blog posts keep getting linked- meaning they are linking to websites. SOOO... if you see this please don't click on them, a couple times they have pulled up NAUGHTY sites. Grrr... I keep deleting them, so if you saw one... SORRY. I don't know how to fix it. I promise I'm a good girl. GOOD AND PURE!!!!

Fun in the Sun... on the Oregon Coast

Well, I went to Portland for the first time this past weekend. It was amazing. Here are some pictures from the trip. My battery died so  I didn't get many pictures. Some of these I stole from Kerry (Thanks Kerry!!!)

Okay... So first I got to meet his Grandma and Grandpa Marshall. Fun people. I loved them. I was quizzed on some history, part I passed, part of which I failed. Haha... I think they still liked me though. They were a lot of fun to talk to, and I loved them instantly!!! Then we spent all day with Paul's AMAZING parents Kuhn and Kerry on Saturday. It was a beautiful day, warm, sunny... just wonderful weather. We spent the day on the Oregon Coast, which I fell in love with. We ate breakfast at this sweet lodge called Camp 18. Which is where this first picture is at. Awww... Cute picture, right? I love this picture of us. The lodge is awesome, it's log and very rustic. I felt right at home. Kerry tried to get us to sit on this lumberjack's lap... Paul was shy about it, but I wasn't :). Here I am on his lap.

Me and some random lumberjack at Camp 18

Here are some pictures off of a park we stopped at (can't remember the name)

Kuhn and Kerry... how cute are they? Awww...

We went for a walk on the beach and found a couple of broken sea shells and an ugly rock. We decided to find an ugly rock because no one ever wants the ugly rocks... everyone looks for the pretty rocks. In fact, Paul found a pretty cool looking rock and tried to tell me how it was an ugly rock and it hit it out of his hand and told him it was too pretty. Hahaha... It was so funny but probably looked so mean from a distance. Haha

While we were walking on the beach we came to this written in the sand. We love you Kerry!!!!

This was awesome. We were just driving along the Pacific Coast Hwy and Kuhn sees a little crab shack and asks if we wanted a crab. I have never actually eaten a crab like this. We stopped. It was awesome. There was this table along the shore, it was so perfect, the day was just beautiful, and there we were all on this table, overlooking the water and the fishermen eating our crab. I was in heaven!!!! I had Paul by my side and two amazing in laws (to be). It was great!!!

While at the beach we approach Kuhn and Kerry getting out Kuhn's kite. I got to learn to fly it. You hold two strings and control the kite with the strings. I loved it! I nose dived it a few times, once in the water (oops) but I LOVED it. SO. MUCH. FUN!!!! He was trying to teach me to spin it in circles and everything. I did so many fun things this day.

More Kite flying!!! Thanks Kuhn!!!

I had so much fun on this trip. Sunday was no different... we ate a wonderul breakfast with his parents and then got ready for church. We went to his ward and I met his Bishop. That was such a good experience. The spirit was pretty strong in there talking to him. He is an amazing man, and he loves Paul so much... EASY TO DO! Then we went to the Portland temple. It was beautiful. I've never been there. I loved walking around the grounds with him. He was so excited to show it to me. I'm just excited to go there with him (wink wink). Then we went back to his parents to have dinner with them. We all pitched in and made a yummy dinner that we ate on the patio, again... beautiful sunny weather. Then that night we roasted marshmallow's and made smore's, EXCEPT... we didn't have graham crackers so Kerry and Paul came up with the idea of using sugar cookies. They were yummy. I started my mallow's on fire...which was unusual for my sweet little Paul. I made him kiss me with burned mallow on my mouth. Haha... Oh the joy and laughter he gets to look forward to by being married to Tahnee :). It was so nice to just sit out there in dark around the campfire. They have an awesome yard, it felt like we were in the mountains, I was in heaven. Paul and I sat out there cuddling and talking about all kinds of things. I just love being with him. Then Monday we registered and drove up to Mt Hood and down the gorge along the Columbia River. It was so beautful and so fun. I was in love. Then we went to a nice restaraunt called Boccelli's. It was yummy!  Paul is so great, he is always taking me to places he loves and he loves some great places. I'm so lucky to have him. I just love more and more all the time.

Mt Hood

I was so sad to leave on Tuesday. We went and picked upholstery for a couch and loveseat we get when we get married. That was fun. And we ate breakfast at Bob's Red Mill (I think that's what it's called). I started to feel sad the closer it got to be time to leave. In fact after I packed I went to give Kerry a hug and I just busted out crying. Poor Kerry. It's so hard to always have to say goodbye to the love of my life. And now I was sad to say goodbye to his awesome parents as well. I'm marrying into a wonderful family, they already feel like family. I really had a hard time at the airport as well. I cried and cried after getting there and waiting for the plane. There were only 40 people on the plane so it was empty, which was good because I sat there cuddling with the stuffed moose Paul gave me on the trip, leaning against the window of the plane bawling my eyes out. The flight attendant came by and said "Awww... that's a cute moose!" and she said it like I was 5. I was crying and I think there is a good chance she might have thought I was handicapped. Hahaha... Since she was talking to me like a child and I'm crying cuddling my moose and looking out the window. Ha!!! As the plane started to take off, the crying just got worse. It was hard. I guess this is a good thing that I miss him so much and have such a hard time saying goodbye. Love is amazing. And priceless... and I never ever want to live without Paul, ever. Now we are on another countdown. He is coming to Utah on the 14th of May. 18 days!!!! Oh, and then last night, I was emotional again, because I miss him so much. I walked over to John and Amy's because they are his family, and John opened the door... YEP.. there I stood, tears running down my face. He just let me hug me for a while as I cried. Poor John. Haha... He was so great!!!!

And They Lived Happily Ever After

Okay... the moment you have all been waiting for has finally arrived (okay, maybe it's the moment I have been waiting, but anyway... moving on) the proposal story!!!!

SO... Paul and I decided to go to Disneyland a couple months ago. He got us plane tickets, rooms (yes separate- we are good people) and all the plans and reservations that anyone, especially me, could hope for. I was so excited. SO... I had only been to Disneyland once in my entire life and it was for like half a day. SOOO, basically this was like my first trip. Here's the thing, Paul knew before I did that he wanted to marry me. I was the one that put the breaks on, but really that only lasted a week. When it's right it's right :). I was a bit of a stubborn girl and was afraid to ask the right questions to the Lord. It was as if I was getting these little taps on my shoulder like the spirit telling me "HELLO DUMMY!" (I know, he doesn't use terms like dummy or moron, but you know what I mean). "I have something amazing for you if only you would LISTEN!!!!", "Open your eyes Moron!" (there's the moron part). Then one day I was at work and all day I kept thinking about how much I loved Paul and the thought kept coming to mind "what are you waiting for? Why are you afraid to ask?" I even asked Jesse and Keith that question. So I decided to fast and pray about it on sunday. A few days later is when the tapping began. Then on the next sunday I was getting ready for church and you know that feeling you get when you feel like you should bear your testimony and you don't and it builds and builds until you feel like your heart is about to beat right out of your chest? I had that feeling. SO... when Paul called me, I told him. I knew I had to tell him that we were "on the same page" since I put the breaks on a couple weeks prior. I was so excited to tell him because I knew he already knew and was just waiting for me. Anyway... there is a long story with that, but I told him, so that next Thursday is when we were going to Disneyland. Paul and I flew to Disneyland and got our rooms and then headed to the park. He was like a kid in a candy store. He was so excited. Honestly, I wondered if he would propose, but I had decided that he couldn't, he didn't have a ring. Psh... I just told him we were on the same page.. he didn't have time. SO... we had so much at the park. SO. MUCH. FUN. He spoiled me rotten. Everything you could ever want to do there we did... or at least as far as I knew. I started to feel like a kid.. I was so happy and so happy with Paul. We had a blast. SO I need to jump ahead to the proposal or this will be too long. JUST KNOW...I was having the time of my life. Best time EVER!!! OKay, so he made us reservations to eat at Ariels Grotto, which is a restraunt on the boardwalk at California Adventure. We had a few minutes before our reservation so we went to this little gift shop across the street. I was looking at the jewelry and found a ring with a P on it. I said "AWWWWW... look! It's a P ring. P for Paul. I should buy this ring!" He said "I"m not wearing that ring!" I laughed and told him it was me not him, he responded with "Don't buy yourself a ring, let me get you a ring!" I quickly replied with a smart alecky "Psh...I'm tired of waiting for you!!!" Hahahaha... I know, I'm a brat. But I bought the P Ring. And I was proud of that P for Paul!!! We went over to eat. We were outside along the water, the sun was down, the lights from all the rides were on, the big ferris wheel was going around, it was beautiful, I was so happy, so in love. Paul kept telling me how beautiful I was, even though I looked like crap that day. See...
He thought I was so beautiful. I had humidity hair (ugly wavy) and no make up on from the day of wear. But he kept telling me. I thought.. he must love me, he thinks I'm beautiful when I'm really not. At least I don't usualy like people to see me looking like that. ANyway.. I was looking out over the water and at him. I said "I'm so happy. I feel like I'm in a dream!" and I meant it. I could tell something was wrong with him, when I asked him he just said that he didn't have much of an appetite. He went to the restroom and came back. He ate a little and then asked me if he could sit next to me. SO I sweetly said of course and made room for him next to me. I even pulled his chair right up next to mine (I like being close to him). He then starts to tell me some pretty sweet things about knowing I was made for him and all that. It was so sweet, and we were cuddling, and again with the lights and the water and the laterns lights... I was seriously in HEAVEN!!!! Then the waitress brings us our desert plate. It was a plate with many different deserts on it. She explains what each thing is and then she sets this down in front of me... and says... "and this is for you"...
And I read it and there was a pause in my insides... I was like... UMMMM... Is this....and I turn and look at him and my eyes were big and I half said... Are you.... and then he stands up (the chairs there are metal and the floor stone, so this wasn't quiet) and I was like "Oh my heck.. you are going to make me cry" I look over and our waitress is leaning against the door about teary eyed with a huge smile on her face. He gets down on one knee and I cover my face with my hands and he says "Tahnee, will you be my Queen? I love you, will you marry me?" I was so excited I think I grabbed his face and kissed him and hugged him and kissed him and said yes and hugged him... hahahaha... I was so so so happy!!! NOw I new why he was so weird and nervous. He then put the ring on my finger.. it was more like he was putting it on and I was like, There's a ring! Where did that come from!!! It is the most beautiful ring I ever did see... and it's all mine. I love it. LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!! He had been carrying that ring around with him the whole time we'd be at Disneyland waiting for the right moment and that one felt right. He said he had a couple other ideas, but I looked beautiful (his words) and he felt like it was right. It was PERFECT. I seriously felt like I was in a dream and when he proposed. OH. MY. HECK!!!! SO, when he went to the restroom he set this all up with the staff. Haha... sneaky. We sat there cuddling and in love and talking about when to get married and saying "We're getting married" in the cheesiest way possible, but we were so happy! IN our own little magical wonderful world. *SIGH*... Well, then we had tickets to see the WOrld of Color show right after and we hadn't even eaten dessert yet. I didn't want it to go to waste so I said "hurry.. take a bite out of each thing" so we did. Haha.. then we watched the most amazing and beautiful water show ever. It was so romantic, we pushed our way to front row. We texted loved ones to tell them, we cuddled and just let ourselves be happy and in love. It was so amazing. I don't know how I got so lucky... things like this don't happen to me... but I'll take it. I just love him so much and he is so good to me. OH.... they also gave us these pins that said "Just Engaged" to wear around the park the rest of our time there. We got special treatment on some rides and lots and lots of congratulations. It was amazing. AMAZING!!!
I had the best time ever in Disneyland. The whole trip. SO many funny things happened and som many sweet things too. It was seriously the best time of my life. And we are going back for our honeymoon. This time we'll have "Just Married" pins, and get lots of congratulations and all the other fun stuff... ya know.
I love our story... he did so good!!! Now we are getting married on July 7th and I cannot wait!!!! I'm glad I had to wait so long, because I got the best guy in the world... I can see how we are perfect for each other... I"m excited to see all the places we will go....

I'm Engaged!!!!!

So... turns out, Disneyland was a DREAM COME TRUE!!! I don't have time to post but I will update asap. I just wanted to let you know that it was amazing and the time of my life and Paul proposed to me while we were there and I became the happiest girl alive at the happiest place on earth!!!!

SO IN LOVE!!!!

Okay... I picked Paul up yesterday, it was amazing. HE is amazing. I just love him so much and I missed him so much! He met my family last night, except for Misty. It was fun. Of COURSE they had to throw in some "Did you know this about Tahnee" moments, that were kind of embarrassing, but that's the family's job I guess. It was a great night and they all LOVED him so much, which is easy to do. He is very easy to love. We leave for Disneyland tomorrow morning and I am very excited. It was funny, last night we walked over to John and Amy's to drop off his stuff and watch a movie. Here is one of the wonderful things about Paul and I. We are good to stick to a curfew, BUT last night, I didn't want to. I was a little bit of a bratt trying to get him to stay up late with me. I said "WE ARE ADULTS! And adults go to bed at 12. TEENAGERS can go to bed at 12 and we are adults so we can stay up late!" He just laughed and kept trying to argue his point that I needed sleep because I have get up and go to work. I was a little whiney and said "BUT... it's my friday tomorrow, I'll be fine!!!!" Anyway... I won that battle, kind of... he walked me home at about 10 minutes to midnight I think. Hahaha... I just didn't want to leave him last night, not that I want to leave him EVER, but especially not last night.
Paul is amazing. We met through my friends John and Amy Marshall, they leave by me (a couple houses down) and I just love them to pieces. Amy told me back in September at the General Relief SOciety broadcast that she wanted to set me up with John's brother Paul. Whenever someone tells me that I always say 'Okay do it'! About 10% of the time the person does it and I actually do go out with the person. It took a while for him to make contact with me, even though he looked up my blog (and I didnt' even know) in November and BLOG STALKED ME for like 2 months!!!! On Christmas night I got a message from him on facebook. I was so excited I ran up stairs and got Mom and Dad up to read it to them. It was very well written, which was so cute. I even said "Wow... he has some mad english skills". Then I had to read it to my friend Jessica beacuse we talk about boys a lot. He would message back and forth periodically, which drove me crazy. Finally on his birthday (Jan 31st) he sent me a long message and from that night on... we have talked everyday since. Paul lives in Portland. He asked me if I wanted to meet him for the first time in Disneyland. We were IMing one night. I read that and pulled my hands off the keyboard fast when I read it- so I could think- as if NOT touching the keyboard anymore makes any more of a difference. haha... I put them back and wrote VERY SLOWLY... I think I'm okay with that. THEN the plans began. He seemed very shocked that I accepted that. Then I said "My brother is going to kill me, or you for that matter." Haha... Well, we couldn't wait that long, so he flew out here last month so we could meet. Anyway... it has been great. We have spent a lot of time getting to know each other. I feel very complete with him. Like I don't know how I lived without him in my life. I feel like I don't make decisions just for myself anymore... it's like subconsciously I always consider him when I make decisions. Like when I was running the other night and it was gettng dark... I stopped because I felt like I have to be safer now, for him, so I can be with him. That is a new feeling for me... I've never felt like that before. I've never loved liket his before and it feels so good!!!! Anyway... I'll have to take pictures at Disneyland and let you know how that goes... BUT.. just know... I am SO IN LOVE! *sigh* NOW... I know what happy feels like!!!!

Deep Breath... SIGH!!!!

Oh how life can change in an instant. I feel like I finally stopped, took a deep breath and jumped. And it was hard, but SO AMAZING! Today I get to pick Paul up from the airport and I am so dang excited. I know I have promised an update post on Paul and I. I just haven't had time. I will post about Disneyland though. YEP... we are going to Disneyland on Thursday, just the two of us. I am so so so excited. You know... I can't even explain how I am feeling. There just aren't words enough to describe how I feel about him. It just feels so right and so natural to love him. I never even dreamed I could feel so comfortable and so safe with someone, but I do. For the first time... I can honestly say... I can knock down all my walls, and for those of you who know me... you know I have TONS of them. I've thought I loved people in the past, and I did, but THIS is real love, and OH. MY. HECK it's amazing!!!! I just can't wait to go get him and give him a big gigantic hug and a kiss and just be happy. I have missed him SOOOOO much!!!!

Stay tuned. I still promise to tell you all about him, all about us.

Perfect...

Kitchen Appliances

This post should have actually happened a while ago, but life gets busy. I'm posting because I need something funny right now and so I pulled up this conversation. One of my wonderful friends and I were going back and forth on a question someone that she was getting set up with asked her (his was lame and she wasn't sure she was excited about him), so she asked one back and hers was:

"If you could be any kitchen appliance what would it be?"

But... I thought he asked her that question, so here is our conversation...

Jessica:
hey, if you could be one kitchen appliance, what would you be?
Tahnee:
Can you please tell him you would be a juicer- so you can squeeze the life out of him.
Hahahahahaha
Or a toaster so you can BURN him!
Or a chopper so you can chew him up and spit him out....
hahahahahahaha...
Jessica:
that was MY question to him :)
i would be an oven because i am HOT! ahahaha
those are so funny.
Tahnee:
Hahahahahahahahaha... OH :)
Tahnee:
Microwave- cause I heat things up and FAST!
GASP! Did I just say that?
That's what I would be...
JK
Lazy Susan... hahahahahahahahaha I'm laughing so hard.....
Everything is funny to me right now....
Jessica Bird:
blender because i like to mix things up
frying pan...make things sizzle
Tahnee:
Garbage disposal... incase this date goes south...
hahahaha
Jessica:
bah hahaha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha aha ha BEST!

It was so funny and we were laughing so hard... BTW... his answer was lame- it was the blender... to mix things up. BOO! Oh, and I'm not a mean dater, I promise.

Something I'm Not So Great At

Keeping my phone handy. I guess i suck at it. I got told last night after a semi-long pause, that I now had a good reason to have my phone on me and I should make sure I do. LOL! Well... okay! BOYS! Do they just think they get to have our attention at their will? I guess so. I'm going to have to try harder in that department because I have never been good at it.

My Fantastic Morning

My morning actually dates back to early Saturday morning when I look over at my water bottle by my bed and want a drink but before I grab for it I notice this dark thing in the mouth piece on the straw- I look closer- Yep, pretty sure that's an earwig. SICK! I take it upstairs, wash, sanitizse, run through the hot dishwasher.
Last night I get the water bottle out of the dishwasher and fill it up. This morning at 3:30am I awake very parched. I reach over and grab the water bottle and think, I should look for any earwigs- NAH... what are the chances. I suck in water- SICKEST THING EVER!!! There was an earwig in the straw AGAIN!!!! FREAKING AGAIN!- Are you kidding me!!!!! I obviously freak out like a crazy person- spitting it out. SPITTING MORE, MORE, MORE! Rubbing the inside of my mouth with my sleeve over and over and over again. SERIOUSLY!!!! Grossest thing ever! I wanted to swear! Then I get up and go to the bathroom and a stupid red spider graces me with it's presence on the floor. I am eyeballing it and scared and wondering how I can kill this thing, it runs under my bath mat just where it's folded a teeny bit and I stomp on the mat to kill it. SUCCESS! It gets flushed. I got back in my room and obviously creeped out by the events that just unfolded I pull all my covers off. HEre's the thing, I rarely see bugs in my rooms, RARELY! Anyway... I pull back all my covers and NOTHING. Phew! I run upstairs and get an actual drink of water from the tap- bug free! Go back to bed. Can't sleep because i keep "feeling" bugs on me and so I finally get up and go in and take a bath. I grab my towel to dry off- a big black spider falls off of it. I freak out and chuck the thing. It was my last towel. There isn't another one there. I am eyeballing the spider so I know exactly where it is. It crawls up the side of the tub- THAT I AM IN, and I just across the room to the other bath mat and look up. On the wall in front of me is another ginormous black spider. I whine the phrase "Are you kidding me!" I look back and the other spider is now climbing in my bathtub and I am looking at his gigantic friend on the wall so I start to think- how I am going MURDER these two so I can calm down and get ready. I grab my handy dandy hairspray and pretty much go to town on the one on the wall while loads of hairspray is running down the wall I think -I'll clean that up later! I soak him and he doesn't move- probably because he can't and hopefully is dying a slow and miserable PARALYZING death! JERK!!! Then I go grab a shoe and moosh it. I proceed to the bathtub to take care of intruder 3. He is no where to be found. SERIOUSLY!!! Does someone just want to crap on my face this morning? I might not even notice. I look and look for it and think... CRAP! I have to find this thing or there is NO WAY I will get in this tub again and I can't go around bathless and stinky and GROSS! It's been about 45 minutes at this point and I wanted to get to work really early cause I am leaving early to go up to girls camp. UGH!!!! I decide to get ready but I keep looking in the tub periodically. I couldn't find him and I had to leave. Everywhere I walked I felt like I kept seeing spiders. I got in my car, started it and started to cry. I sat there and cried like a little baby over my horrific morning. Good FREAKING morning to me!!! I was so tired on the drive in that it worried me I would fall asleep at the wheel so I tried to leave the AC cold but then I'd get chills and it was NOT GOOD! Luckily I made it in safely but currently there is a stupid blasted spider in my bathtub/bathroom thinking it outsmarted me. I hope it's enjoying itself because I'm about to call Dave to go down and find it and MURDER IT, and if he doesn't, SO HELP ME that thing will not survive this day!!!!! A spider WILL NOT get the best of me.

20 Minutes of Butt Kicking!

Okay... if you want an amazing workout for a short time each day... I have one for you! Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. OH. MY. HECK! AMAZING!!!! Did I say it was amazing? GOOD.. because it is. I have been getting up in the mornings and doing it... ROCKS. It's only 20 minutes. 20 minutes of BUTT KICKING!!! I have been sore, but in places that I don't usually get sore, like my back and my butt. Yep, my butt. It's sore. As a side note, you use your butt muscles to do way more things than you realize. TRUST ME!

Overspray

So... you know that Endust spray duster stuff that is AMAZING and it sprays air and cleans your keyboard and other electronic stuff? Well, I used it this morning to clean out my electonic hole puncher and it was like someone threw me a party in my cubicle- confetti everywhere. So... I just went to town and sprayed off my desk. Well... at the time we were all laughing and a couple people thought this was so cool and I told this, it's purpose to clean your keyboard/lap top not your whole desk and we all thought this was funny.... WELL...
Here I am like 2 hours later and I have this stupid taste on my lips that I CANNOT get rid of. It's like I sprayed them with hairspray or something. DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND... I WAS NOT trying to clean my teeth and/or mouth, it must have just made it way all over me. YUCK!!! I can't get it off. Basically I will be getting no kisses tonight. LOL! I wouldn't kiss these lips so I'm sure no one else will want to either. Ha ha ha...

Being Me

I'm kind of having one of those days. You know, those days when you just feel happy- for no reason at all. I had one of these night last Friday night. I was home alone. It was nice to have a night alone with no plans to just do nothing. I made me some salmon on the BBQ and watched some Alias while learning to make a pretty sweet looking bracelet on YouTube. I just felt good. It was like I was on this spiritual high. Once I realized it I was like... Thank you Heavenly Father. I just really really liked being me. I kind of feel that way today, maybe not as much as i did Friday, but I do feel that today and it feels good.

So... the other thing... I gave into the natural man. I got a tanning pass about a month ago and burn me at the stake, I like tanning. Plus, my confidence went up. I'm getting a pretty good tan and it feels good for the summer. Now when I go to Hawaii I will look good. Maybe I'll fit in :).

The Dating Game...

Okay, so there is this guy who I was really thinking I liked a few months back. I really kind of liked him and I was excited about him. Well I'll keep this long story short and say that he flaked on me BIG TIME. Well, it was kind of disappointing but I did what I do best and put up my draw bridge, threw peraunas in the moat and moved on without looking back. Well Friday night he decided to come back. I've been talking it out with him but I'm a little confused as to what to do. I want someone to be there for me like I am there for them. Someone who I can trust. I don't trust him anymore. I don't know how much I ever even did trust him. We were in the beginnings. Tonight he has been trying to talk me into picking things back up where we left them. I can't do that. He said that "if getting to know each other better is too big of a risk for you to want to take than I'm just going to have to get major creative to find a way to let you know this isn't a game for me". That was kind of a good answer. He told me that if he didn't really have feelings for me than he would just tell me it was good knowing me and move on, but that isn't the case. Anyway... I just don't know what to do. I kind of explained some of my past horrifying experiences and where it has left me so hopefully he would understand that just ditching me is not a good idea. It's a good way to get you a one way ticket out of my life forever. Anyway... I guess all I can do is pray and let the Lord help me out cause he knows all the answers. I have to say that this guy is really pleading his case. He even wants to make up this lunch date we were supposed to have right before he flaked on me. I just don't know. How do I know he won't do it again. GEEZ.. one day will someone come along that will stick it out for the long haul, that will think I am good enough. I have to believe that. Even though moron after moron keeps proving otherwise. I know there is someone and Man is he going to be lucky cause I will love the crap out of him!

VISITOR...

Today is a BEEEEYOOOOTIFUL Day. So... here's why. I was sitting at my desk, minding my own business working like a busy bee and I look up and there is someone peeking their head around the corner at me. My eyes get HUGE and I say (a little louder than I should) HEY!!!!!!! He laughs and walks over to me. I wanted to get up and give a giant bear hug. I GOT A VISITOR!!!! It was a previous boss of mine who I adore and MISS! The funny thing is I was going to email him today kind of a funny email asking him what is wrong with his boy J. I just addressed it in person. LOL. He invited me to come out and stay with them. They live in Hawaii. I guess if I come I get a date out it with his son. SCORE! I've seen him, he's hot! But I told him I still want to go out with J again. LOL. Anyway... it was so good to visit with him. It totally made me all smiles. It was the best suprise EVER!!!


It's all about the little things in life and the little ways in which people help you feel loved. Life is about building each others self esteem after all.


OH.. AND... one of my FAVORITEST people in the WHOLE WORLD is coming to visit the end of this month. One of my bestest friends ever- Katie the Kanuck. And I need to tell her to bring me that amazing candy bar I love from canada... Ewwww.... I should get on that email. Gotta run....

Treat Your Children as you Would a Guest in your Home.

I thought that this was funny. I heard it in another amazing TALK by Jack R. Christianson about Self Esteem, it's called "Man is that he might have joy. Seriously, if you have never heard this talk, listen to it. It's amazing. I love it. I have listened to it 3 times just this weekend. But I love Jack Christianson. At the end of this funny clip I am putting a list of things he talked about also that is SOOOOO amazing for any parent to read, even if you don't want to read all this, read the end...

This is by a radio personality named Emma Bombeck...

On TV the other day, a leading child psychologist said parents should treat their children as they would treat their best friend...with courtesy, dignity and diplomacy.

"I have never treated my children any other ways," I told myself. But later that night, I thought about it. Did I really talk to my best friends like I talked to my children? Just suppose.....our good friends, Fred and Eleanor, came to dinner one night and......

"Well, it's about time you two got here! What have you been doing? Dawdling? Leave those shoes outside, Fred. They've got mud on them. And shut the door. Were you born in a barn?

"So Eleanor, how have you been? I've been meaning to have you over for such a long time. Fred! Take it easy on the chip dip or you'll ruin your dinner. I didn't work over a hot stove all day long to have you nibble like some bird."

"Heard from any of the gang lately? Got a card from the Martins. Yes, they're in Lauderdale again. They go every year to the same spot. What's the matter with you, Fred? You're fidgeting. Of course you have to go. It's down the hall, first door on the left. And I don't want to see a towel in the middle of the floor when you're finished.

"Did you wash your face before you came, Eleanor? I see a dark spot around your mouth. I guess it's a shadow. Do, how are your children? If you ask me I think summer school is great for them. Is everybody hungry? Then, why don't we go into dinner? You all wash up and I'll take up the food. Don't tell me your hands are clean, Eleanor. I saw you playing with the dog.

"Fred, you sit over there and Eleanor you can sit with the half glass of milk. You know you're all elbows with it comes to milk. There now, your host will say grace.

"Fred, I don't see any cauliflower on your plate. Have you ever tried it? Well, try a spoonful. If you don't like it I won't make you finish it, but if you don't try it, you can just forget dessert. And sit up straight or your spine will grow that way. Now, what were we talking about? Oh yes, the Gerbers. They sold their house. I mean they took a beating but....Eleanore, don't talk with food in your mouth. I can't understand a word you're saying. And use your napkin."

At that moment in my fantasy, my son walked into the room. "How nice of you to come," I said pleasantly.

"Now what did I do?" he sighed.

This is supposed to be a poem I think, but I typed it in my outline for my lesson today so sorry... it's in list format....

a. Children learn what they live:

i. If children live with criticism they learn to condemn.

ii. If children live with tolerance they learn to be patient

iii. If children live with ridicule they learn to be shy

iv. If children live with encouragement they learn confidence

v. If children live with security they learn to have faith

vi. If children grow up with fear they end up standing at the end of every line

vii. If children live with praise they learn to stand alone and lead their parade even if it’s raining

viii. If children are spoiled with indulgence and permissiveness, they grow up full of compromise and greed

ix. If CHrildren are given challenges and responsibilities they grow up with values and goals

x. If children grow up with optimism they will grow up believing they were meant to fly. Born to be Queens and Kings.

xi. If children live with hate they will grow up to be blind to beauty and true love

xii. If children grow up with love, they will live to give their love away and become blind to hate

xiii. If children are reminded of all the bad in them we see they’ll become exactly as we’d hoped they’d never be

xiv. But if we tell our children we’re so proud to wear their name they’ll learn to win believing they’ll achieve their highest aim. Because children live what they learn and learn what they live.

Question...

Is Root Beer Pong an appropriate work entertainment activity?

satan vs Jesus

On friday Miley and Alex were playing with this ruler that was broken. Okay... they were slightly fighting over it so My Mom took it away from them. Somehow they got it back so I took it away. Miley comes up to me with her big cute puppy dog eyes and is telling me how she wants to play with it. I wouldn't give it to her so she slams her hands on her hips, tilts her head, opens her eyes REAL wide and looks at me for a second then goes "Tahnee... when you be mean you're letting satan win. When you be nice you let Jesus win. You letting satan win right now cause you being mean!" LOL! How do you argue with that? I seriously just laughed. She just kept standing like that, looking at me like that. She was not amused. She was trying to teach me a lesson and i was just laughing at her. LOL.

Best Grandparents Award

So, my parents came up today. We went out to Tooele to visit Grandma and Grandpa's graves and put flowers on them. It was a lot of fun. On the way back we drove up to Ophir so Dave could show us all his house he lived in before living in Stockton. I seriously loved Ophir. It's a mining town. I'm pretty sure it is listed as a Ghost town. It was so cute though. I should have taken pictures. Sorry. Anyway... when my parents decided to come up to spend the day/night with all of us they came fully equipped with a tent. They decided they wanted to camp out with the kids. How sweet is that. Because it is winter in almost June and raining, they set up camp in the garage. We brought down all the mattresses because cement is not in the same category as grass or dirt.

My Dad said to me just before this picture, "Are you sleeping out here too?" I thought about my nice warm cozy bed just down the stairs and easily said "Nope, it's all you!" He laughed, then said "Well, this is the years first camping trip." LOL.

Next, to finalize the indoor camping adventure Dave made indoor smores. If you are curious how one makes indoor smores (Dave style), you take a cookie sheet, line it with wax paper, put your mallows on it and bake it until golden brown. Take them out and mash them between two chocolate covered grahams. Like so...

BTW... Dave and Nic bought this table in March but the chairs have been on back order (NEVER order anything from Ashley Furniture- unless you want a nightmare) so... they have their regular chairs set up to the table. Only in the Rubow house do you hear the phrase... "Go stand at the table and I'll bring you one." LOL. As opposed to, "Go SIT at the table and I'll bring you one."And two little bums washing up before bed.

It was a great day and the adventure is still going on. We'll see how the camp out goes tonight (wink, wink). I have to say that I have the best parents in the world. They are always trying to do things that will make the kids happy. They love the grand-kids. They seriously win the Best Grandparents Award, hands down!