Sad

Today is my last day at my current job. And I'm sad. And emotional. And it pretty much just sucks. I couldn't even sleep on the bus this morning because I couldn't stop thinking about it. And then I was thinking about all the people at work that I love that aren't going to be coming in today, and then I was sadder. But then I thought... 'Hello, my name is Tahnee, you kill my father, prepare to die." Okay... LOL... that's not what I thought but I couldn't resist typing it cause it. I thought "Hello my name is Tahnee and I AM SELFISH!" because these people have more important things to do. So it's okay. SO I got here and Jesse came in, so, I just blurted it out because I figure if I throw it out there, it will make me less emotional about it. I think it may have worked, but I think he may have thought "oh my gosh. HOW long do you have left here?" No, he just said , "Don't be sad. You're only moving up a few floors". Which I know, but it's different and SOMEONE (you know who you are) came to my desk last night to "say goodbye" and I think after that, it hit me. HARD. So I told Jesse this morning "I was okay until that dang __________ came up to my desk last night to say goodbye, like I was dying or leaving the country, or moving across the country." And of course Jesse just laughed. And of course I was like, "But I do appreciate it, and it made me feel good." Then I got the whole "everyone loves you" response, which isn't entirely true, but it helped. Anyway... the moral of this story is that sometimes, like today, I hate being an emotional GIRL!!! It's hard when you're just sad, because then it's like stupid satan has a hay day. It's like saying "hey satan... COME ON IN! Oh... and since you're here, why don't you make me a miserable basket case". And another thing, I would like to point out that right now, satan's name is underlined in red (you know... because the computer wants me to capalize his name) but I refuse to fix it because if the computer was as smart as me, he would know that it shouldn't be capitalized because satan sucks, and he isn't a person, so he doesn't even deserve his name to be capitalized. And I hate him. So there!

I should add that I am excited for the new job, and I know it's the right thing, I'm just a little scared to leave all these people that see the good in me to go to a floor with people who don't know me. I guess it's a good think the Lord knows more than me.