SO IN LOVE!!!!

Okay... I picked Paul up yesterday, it was amazing. HE is amazing. I just love him so much and I missed him so much! He met my family last night, except for Misty. It was fun. Of COURSE they had to throw in some "Did you know this about Tahnee" moments, that were kind of embarrassing, but that's the family's job I guess. It was a great night and they all LOVED him so much, which is easy to do. He is very easy to love. We leave for Disneyland tomorrow morning and I am very excited. It was funny, last night we walked over to John and Amy's to drop off his stuff and watch a movie. Here is one of the wonderful things about Paul and I. We are good to stick to a curfew, BUT last night, I didn't want to. I was a little bit of a bratt trying to get him to stay up late with me. I said "WE ARE ADULTS! And adults go to bed at 12. TEENAGERS can go to bed at 12 and we are adults so we can stay up late!" He just laughed and kept trying to argue his point that I needed sleep because I have get up and go to work. I was a little whiney and said "BUT... it's my friday tomorrow, I'll be fine!!!!" Anyway... I won that battle, kind of... he walked me home at about 10 minutes to midnight I think. Hahaha... I just didn't want to leave him last night, not that I want to leave him EVER, but especially not last night.
Paul is amazing. We met through my friends John and Amy Marshall, they leave by me (a couple houses down) and I just love them to pieces. Amy told me back in September at the General Relief SOciety broadcast that she wanted to set me up with John's brother Paul. Whenever someone tells me that I always say 'Okay do it'! About 10% of the time the person does it and I actually do go out with the person. It took a while for him to make contact with me, even though he looked up my blog (and I didnt' even know) in November and BLOG STALKED ME for like 2 months!!!! On Christmas night I got a message from him on facebook. I was so excited I ran up stairs and got Mom and Dad up to read it to them. It was very well written, which was so cute. I even said "Wow... he has some mad english skills". Then I had to read it to my friend Jessica beacuse we talk about boys a lot. He would message back and forth periodically, which drove me crazy. Finally on his birthday (Jan 31st) he sent me a long message and from that night on... we have talked everyday since. Paul lives in Portland. He asked me if I wanted to meet him for the first time in Disneyland. We were IMing one night. I read that and pulled my hands off the keyboard fast when I read it- so I could think- as if NOT touching the keyboard anymore makes any more of a difference. haha... I put them back and wrote VERY SLOWLY... I think I'm okay with that. THEN the plans began. He seemed very shocked that I accepted that. Then I said "My brother is going to kill me, or you for that matter." Haha... Well, we couldn't wait that long, so he flew out here last month so we could meet. Anyway... it has been great. We have spent a lot of time getting to know each other. I feel very complete with him. Like I don't know how I lived without him in my life. I feel like I don't make decisions just for myself anymore... it's like subconsciously I always consider him when I make decisions. Like when I was running the other night and it was gettng dark... I stopped because I felt like I have to be safer now, for him, so I can be with him. That is a new feeling for me... I've never felt like that before. I've never loved liket his before and it feels so good!!!! Anyway... I'll have to take pictures at Disneyland and let you know how that goes... BUT.. just know... I am SO IN LOVE! *sigh* NOW... I know what happy feels like!!!!

Deep Breath... SIGH!!!!

Oh how life can change in an instant. I feel like I finally stopped, took a deep breath and jumped. And it was hard, but SO AMAZING! Today I get to pick Paul up from the airport and I am so dang excited. I know I have promised an update post on Paul and I. I just haven't had time. I will post about Disneyland though. YEP... we are going to Disneyland on Thursday, just the two of us. I am so so so excited. You know... I can't even explain how I am feeling. There just aren't words enough to describe how I feel about him. It just feels so right and so natural to love him. I never even dreamed I could feel so comfortable and so safe with someone, but I do. For the first time... I can honestly say... I can knock down all my walls, and for those of you who know me... you know I have TONS of them. I've thought I loved people in the past, and I did, but THIS is real love, and OH. MY. HECK it's amazing!!!! I just can't wait to go get him and give him a big gigantic hug and a kiss and just be happy. I have missed him SOOOOO much!!!!

Stay tuned. I still promise to tell you all about him, all about us.